Supposedly...

Supposedly, we will perform at my school's acquaintance party. Saturday. Night. Sunday kinabukasan. We all have our commitments sa church. I'll teach Sunday School for the Youth, They're at the praise and worship. It was anticipated. Hinugot ko pa si Ammiel at si Kamkam para don. But it turned out to be a frustration.
We got invited by Dani to perform. Prepared for it for almost a week and a half. Though yes we were so excited for it. Ginusto namin yon. We even had the practice finish early just for us to be at school earlier.

Lined up:
-What Faith can do - Kutless but then changed to
-Call to Arms by Urbandub
-Titanium by David Guetta
-How He Loves by Flyleaf

We're ready, Everybody anticipated for it too. I don't know why but it just didn't work. We thought we're on the list who will perform. Dani said so, too. He assured it to us. But our turn's finished. No name from us was called. I got frustrated. Sobrang dami na ng hassle na nangyari samin, hindi pala kami kasama sa mga magpeperform. Inaantok na kami. Gusto na magpahinga at may Sunday service pa kinabukasan. Gusto ko na umuwi, pero ayaw ni Dani. Kaya ipinilit niyang tumugtog kami. Kahit isang kanta lang. How He Loves. Ayun ay dahil gamay na namin yon.


The thought of all the hassles bugged me. Bakit? I know it's against His will na magperform kami. But He still allowed. I thought deeper. I reflect why. What's wrong? I know. It's me. I got so blinded by the flashing lights. Self Righteousness. I got self-righteous. I believe, I was about to take the glory if we're to perform. Taking the glory. I have a tendency for that. And I'm rebuked. Haaaaay. Thank You, Lord. Sa susunod nalang po kapag hindi na ako mayabang. Yung kapag ang lahat ng gagawin ko ay para Sa'Yo at hindi para makilala ako ng mga tao.

there came a text, "Please be reminded of the staff interview for the school publication."

is this it? does this mean that I should gather up my freaking mind again? Gather up. Yes, I believe wonderful thoughts wander off. It's now time to unleash the weirdest in me. It's time to share what has to be shared. May this be what I told God it is for. May this be for His glory.